Spot the change?

Can you see what a friend did to this picture? So much fun!
So I've been wondering a lot on if I am a likeable person?? I seem to not think I am as I never really get called to go and hang out with anyone and their kids. Though it could just be that the other people are too busy to hang out. But I'n not sure of that. I have to call to set up a playdate or something, it is never the other way around. Though I've become great friends with a dear friend who lives a block from us and we get together 2 times a week with the kids. I don't know how summer is going to turn out though, since her oldest is 10, then she has a 4 year old and a 6 month old. My two kids are her two youngest ages.
But seriously ,those that read my blog (I doubt many do read) am I not a likeable person?? I think I need to focus on other people and not on me.
Or it all could just be the craziness inside my head.

Birth Story

2nd picture is Allison and the 1st is Paul (me holding him)
I just read someone's birth story because their sweet little girl is turning one this week. That got me to thinking about both of my birth stories.
My first birth story is a lot different from my second one. I remember weeks before my due date, just dreading being pregnant anymore. I was bound and determined to try EVERYTHING I could to get that child out!!! At one point I thought my water had broke a few weeks early and went to the hospital, only to get sent home STILL PREGNANT!!!! It turned out to be bath water. BUMMER!!!! Then I had my last check up and was still very much pregnant (and that was a few days after my due date). So they asked if I wanted to be induced that Friday and I jumped at it!!! I said HECK YES!!!! So we went into the hospital at 7am ready to go. Got the pitocin and waited for the contractions. Mind you I had not dialated one bit before then. So at first the contractions were not painful. I was doing great. Then all of a sudden they started to hit me HARD! At that time I had told Jason to go and get some lunch, it was lunch time. So it figures that as soon as he had gone to eat I would hurt BAD!!! The doctor came in to check me and I was only at a 3cm!!! I was thinking SERIOUSLY a 3!! I told him to check again, surely he had to be wrong?!?! After that I was able to get Jason back into the room and tell him I NEEDED AN EPIDURAL!!!!!! So I got the epidural and I thought he was a WONDERFUL MAN! Took all the pain away, and I was able to sleep!!! Then at about 5pm I stopped progressing. I was at an 8 at that time. But we waited it out for a few hours in hopes I would progress. The doctor came in and still NOTHING, NADA, NO CHANGE! But we decided (the doctor) that I could wait another couple of hours. By the time 9pm came, I was still 8cm!!!! Obviously my daughter Allison had NO intension on coming out. But at that point the doctor decided I had waited at that stage for way to long, and all of a sudden I had a rush of people coming in to prep me and take me to the OR. It was deemed an emergency c-section, due to lack of progression. So I got scared. I had never seen that many people in my room at once the whole time I was there. And we were out of the room in like 15 minutes flat.
At that point another man came into the OR and gave me more medicine in my epidural to numb me more. Then I got the shakes and could not stop the shaking. After another 15 minutes or so with Jason by my side, Allison was born!!!! At that point I was uncomfortable and asked for the medicine that would make me drouzy. I got to see Allison and then I was out. Jason stills remembers that as the funniest he's ever seen me. Aparently I kept on waking up to ask how she was, how big was she, and where was she?? she was in daddy's arms the whole time, just as perfect as could be. Once the medicine wore off I was great. I can take pain like no other person. I was up and walking the following day! I am a SUPER RECOVERY PERSON:) I needed to walk around and they let me. Then we were able to take home our precious first born a few days later and I never took any pain killer for the pain, besides tylenol once or twice. I was never really in any pain either.
Fast forward three years later, and I was pregnant with little Paul (who happens to be 6 months old now!!!) Paul was a scheduled c-section. I was told I had a 50/50 chance of having a normal delivery and I opted for a c-section since I did so well with the last one. Good thing too, Paul was bigger then Allison. I went in a week before my due date and was preped and in the OR two hours after we got there. This time the medicine did not make me shake and I stayed awake because I had nothing to put me to sleep. I recovered just as well the first time. I was walking around that evening! The nurses thought I hadn't even had a c-section I was doing so well. Aparently other women were screaming and crying because of the pain. Not me:) I do not know where I get the powers that be that let me have no pain but I like it. So now I have two beautiful children. One that I just signed up to go to preschool in the fall!!! She'll be 4 in September!!! Can you believe it?? And Paul is 6 months!!! Time sure does fly!!

Pictures!

I decided to take some pictures of the kids yesterday and this is what I got!!! I did not change these photo's at all. I got these kids to smile all on my own:)

Fun Outside

We are up every morning by 7:30am. This morning after a quick run to the store I took the kids outside for some photo time and Allison colored with sidewalk chalk. I wanted to share some of these great pictures that I took of the kids!

Dinner!!!

Tonight for dinner Jason made Mahi Mahi burgers with fresh avacado and mango salsa on a poppy seed and onion bun!! Was DELICIOUS!!! We got the stuff at Whole Foods. It was WAY worth it:)

I have LOTS of pictures to download!! I'll do it on a later date and post more on the kids and other things....

Craziness, check ups, and baby steps

Today is a day of lots of crazy things happening. Allison didn't make it onto the potty. She always feels the need to run to me and tell me she has to potty, then runs to the potty but can't get her pants down in time and potty's in her pants and on the floor. No problem there, but today has been a defiant day for miss Allison. Has been doing the complete opposite after I tell her no.
-pinching baby's cheeks (i say no-she does it anyway)
-pulling baby's legs (no-doesn't listen)
-wash hands after potty (no-runs away)
It's a hard day for a 3 year old, who is showing her defiance because she is jealous. This is what I got from it. I have been controlling my anger better and have stepped back and took in a deep breathe and asked her calmly to stop. You know what, IT WORKS!!! Baby steps for me, but I'm changing my mothering:)

Paul 4 month check up
-15 pounds 10 ounces
-25.75 inches long
-44cm head circumference
-can push his chest up off the floor!!
-has rolled from front to back (a few times)
-has rolled from back to front (once!)
-very happy, smiley, giggly boy
-can sleep in his crib in his room until 2am, then I give in (I am working on it)

Funny note
-went to let the dogs inside the house today and got locked out by Allison!!! I was playing with Paul on the floor while she was playing by herself, nicely. The dog was barking so I went through the sliding glass door and opened the other door to let the dog in. Takes 2 seconds right??? well, I turn around and she has the sliding door closed and has locked it. What is more, she thinks this is HILARIOUS!!!!! Here I am freaking out because Paul is on the floor crying and Allison is laughing at me. Trying to reason with a 3 year old who thinks it is funny to lock me out was CRAZY!! Thought about going to the front door, but also realized she could run there faster and lock that door as well! Then I realized I had my phone in my pocket and grandma was upstairs. But I finally was able to talk her into opening the door for me. From now on I need to make sure she either comes with me and I grab Paul or that she is no where near the back door. Whew!

Blow Outs Palouza!!!!

I have never had a baby with so many outfit changes in ONE DAY!!!!!!! Paul has gone through 4 outfits today!!! Three of them within 30 minutes!!! First he has diarehea and I have it to, go figure. So he poops liquid at the moment. So he pooped about 2pm and it shot all the way up his back. So he got a bath and a new outfit. Then while I was putting his diaper on him he managed to pee in his mouth!!! YUCK!!!! So then about an hour later he pooped AGAIN and it shot up his back AGAIN!!!! Then when I changed the diaper and clothes again he managed to pee in his face again and all over me, which prompted another change of clothes for me and him. Then he pee'd through his clothes!!!!!!!! Diaper and clothes change number 4!!! I'm hoping it doesn't happen again!! It's just been one of those days!